Here we go again…
Its true what they say. You cant truly make someone happy unless you are happy with yourself. The sad truth is…Im not happy with myself. I dont think I ever have been to be honest. I also never made an effort to be happy with myself either. So this is me just complaining about me.. I dont like to speak my mind most of the time because this is what it consists of: me questioning myself.
My mom left not because my father is a bad person or made her unhappy…She was unhappy with herself. She moved away to find her happiness. At one point or another people take the selfish route for happiness. I cant be upset with her for that. If anything I should be happy she is trying to be happy because If i wasnt wouldnt that make me the selfish one?
I was fucked from the start. I cant say I wont grow from this because I know time will go on and one day regardless if its now or later ill be fine. Just now im not.